The Duality of LOVE.

The Duality of LOVE.

Love versus Fear.

       What is love?

       And what is love not ?

       Has love ever let you down ?

       What love has done, have you forgot ?

There are so many questions about the incredible energy that love clearly is. My little poem above is a teaser and a reminder to us all that without love, nothing ever seems to have been accomplished. Ever. We can argue all day about the semantics but I want to focus a little more on one of the most common understandings about this word and what it means to us to better know it. I am going to make a very bold statement here and it may challenge pre-held beliefs, but nonetheless I am a warrior above all else and fighting for the best way to live my truth and share it in the world. So here we go.

The opposite of Love, is Fear....!

So I imagine that you all go no....no... it is clearly hate...! (No? Then we could be on the same page)

I believe Love and Hate to be actually the same entity, just the far extreme of it. Let me try to illustrate this.

                              (Level of acceptance)

Love                  [                              Hate

                                                   (Level of acceptance)

Cold                                [                 Hot

                                                     (Level of acceptance)

Darkness                          [               Light

                                         (Level of acceptance)

Left                          [                         Right

                                       (Level of acceptance)

Rich                        [                           Poor

Hopefully you see what I am trying to get at. Love is not the absence of hate, it is just at a point on that line between them, either further away or closer to, what point you find for acceptance on that line, continuum is up to you. As too all the other things listed and many more. Light for example is not light as a concept, if there is not something it is not. The absence of light is as we know, darkness. Between these two differences there is a place where they both exist but in varying amounts at the same time. When we travel between the two opposites we find more of one and less of the other, logically. Same goes for Love. When we move away form it we are travelling towards a place where that love will become hate, (less love) if we keep moving away. That is why often love, or better said 'falling in love' feels like a roller-coaster of emotions. It can be a constant state of fluctuation between the two opposing ends of the spectrum. And the more deeply we allow that feeling to get into our being, the more erratic that seems to make us. Eventually we all find a happy equilibrium and settle into the real love that can last. Or we don't and that relationship fails as we search for that 'high' again. But love in and of itself is also hate combined.

Fear however is a force that can be used to good effect. (I challenge anyone to tell me what good, Hate ever did) Hate is the furthest away from love that you could get when you finally arrive there. Fear is a tool to be harnessed. It can debilitate certainly, it can ruin a good experience. It can turn your life into a nightmare if left to take full control of all your actions. But if it can be accepted and used diligently, we see it as something powerful and worthy of our respect, for it can help us to live better and more loving lives. Fear occurs mainly as a sense of attention to what our minds are thinking about, and ways to avoid suffering. If we are climbing, we fear we could fall, and so our attention goes to the ways to avoid that, gripping tighter, or wearing safety gear, etc.. If we hear a strange noise or smell an uncommon aroma we become alert because of our attention to this sense and then fear of suffering comes into play. Then we either remove the danger, or escape it. Hence accepting and cleverly using fear, can have very advantageous results in our lives.

 

And then there are the negative affects of fear. Fear that becomes so strong it actually wards us off or away from the things that can and will bring us the greatest joy in our lives. Fear that stops us attempting to walk the road to our dreams and eventual success. Fear of failure can be one of the most incredibly debilitating phenomena ever witnessed on our planet. Fear can stop us approaching that woman we saw whos' very presence we cannot ignore, because we fear rejection of our desire. It can stop us climbing up the ladder of personal success towards our dream career, fear that we wont be good enough. Gratefully many of us do not let this fear grip us indefinitely, we may panic at first, but when we see that progress forward is being made our determination rises and we believe the goal can be achieved, thus empowering us to go on still. How many people have regretted not going on that last little bit when the fear of failure took away from them the vision that they were almost already all the way there? Didn't ask her for her number, didn't take that chance of an interview, and made any amount of excuses for our fear rather than face them. Yes, possibly we all have. I know I have felt this in the past, and it has taught me one thing. I must not give up following my dreams. Sure I have to adapt to circumstance changes and other relevant criteria, but the dreams I hold are not going to be crushed by fear of failure. Rather the opposite, this fear will lead me to succeed eventually, if I can keep focus on the important things. The destination however is not the important thing here. In my life, the important thing is the journey itself. Life is a journey and fear of not having enough to complete the journey is what we have all felt at one time or another, before we may have concluded that we would just have to travel more economically. Life goes on and worrying ourselves about it will not change it. Making advantage to accept and enjoy it should be our choice. This surely is the course of wisdom. 

 

Love is a powerful force, there are no other forces like it in creation, because love is everything. Because of it, everything exists. Whether you believe in God or the Universal Energy, or the big bang theory or random coincidence, it can be clearly determined that a positive loving force had something to do with this existence in which we find ourselves. Duality of love and hate can be seen because they have to abide together. Side by side they create the existence of one another, and we see and feel the effects of them both in our world. Please don't worry yourselves over avoiding one or the other. Accept that they both exist and then if possible, choose the greater good to lead you to make the choices that bring you greater happiness. Which in and of itself is the absence of unhappiness, suffering and pain. Accept them both and choose Love to be your journey, if peace and happiness be your desire.

Love is....

The power to be free from suffering. The force that shows us happiness. The reason for life.

Fear is....

The power to debilitate us from moving forward, the force that can bring unhappiness. A tool for love, that shows us love.

Which will you choose...?

May the love of the Universe help you to decide if you cannot yet see clearly which will serve you the greatest joy.

Love n light.

Peaceful Warrior.

The Cruelty of Silence.

The Cruelty of Silence.

     "I wrote a poem about your light, showed the world what warmth you shared with all, the tiny and the not so small. You smiled for a day then all that shattered, serving a master who said it mattered, not what was said but what was thought, oh friend can my wisdom ever mend, the love you used to share?"

Most of us realise that men are from Mars and women are from Venus. We speak and act differently because we come from different places and had diverse upbringings. When we communicate it seems a bit half baked and then the confusions set in, to debilitate the flow of love and energy between us. So why do we let this happen? Why can't we see the wisdom of being open to let each other breathe?

It breaks my heart to think that what I have done in all good intention could have been misunderstood and converted even, into some other kind of reception. I accept that I am protagonist here and that my words and actions are under scrutiny. I am truly sorry that my way of sharing has caused even the tiniest bit of grief for anyone, or the loss of time thinking it over.

So lets talk about the what.

Intention.

Thoroughly excited by a thought for the day of another I set about creating something from that. In my own head and later onto other media. Excited in the way of what my thoughts had told me about love. A love that was open, was thoughtful, was deep and enough. A love that though shared, was respectful to the heart of one special person. I was excited that this kind of love exists in the world and that a special someone had the frankness to let those thoughts out for others to read and worship that love. This love is Agape. Not Eros, nor Philia in singular nor Storge, but the Agape which is all encompassing. My excitement lead me to talk about love in many ways, and in doing so fed the doubts of another as to my Agape. Granted the object of my words may not be aware of my intentions, but if agape were at work in their heart then they definitely would be able to recognise it in mine.

The why.

Poetry.

I have been using poetry now for some almost four years and in that time have amassed a cannon of over 1000 poems. And 50 song lyrics. It is my aim to bring joy from my heart, out into the world to be shared with others who do not have this amount of joy nor this amount of courage to display it. Love is inside all of us and my experience taught me that FEAR was what stopped it flowing out through my mouth and actions for the biggest part of my life. I determined to change that, to be the change I wished to see, and to fearlessly tell what was in my heart. Oddly enough, I have found that the more I share the more I still have to give away. Like it is infinite. A pot of love that never runs out. WOW....!

But, I am being serious, deadly serious. This love is Agape, an it will not let me rest from sharing it. Some people will say that I am mad and they are right in a way. I am mad about sharing. Mad about living life to give good gifts away. Mad about love.

So as far as I am concerned, anyone who does not see this, are themselves mad. Mad for not opening their eyes to the beauty of sharing love. Fear gripped me as surely as it grips them now. But the good thing about love, Agape, is that it never fails to be inclusive and not exclusive. Agape cannot let anything out of its 'inclusivity.'

So, if you are reading this and feeling happy then magic is at work in you. If you are reading yourself here and feeling annoyed or tense or guilty or in need of revenge or retribution, then I suggest that you are not letting the magic of love flow freely through you. Perhaps you are trying to control it as you have been taught to. Control which is only really an illusion. Maybe you are deluded by your own self worth, and position of power. I tell you all, only in LOVE is there any real power, and only in LOVE can anything of worth be bringing you happiness. Fear drives us all mad eventually, because it is 'exclusive.' It draws lines and creates inequality, them and us, higher and lower right and wrong, have and have-not. Believe me when I say, real power is only found in your highest action, an action of LOVE. Love does not abide selfishness, nor the feeling that someone is owned by another. We are not owned, we are free spirits, yet often shackled by doubt.

People that own things are deluded into thinking that they really have any power of possession. It all belongs to everyone....! Yes, again, what we have belongs to everyone. Respect for things, and more especially others will come when we KNOW this. We enter this world naked and shall exit the same. We cannot take or own anything with us.

The how.

Agape.

Love.

Unfortunately the English language is not as accommodating of this word as are others, like Greek, Hebrew and other ancient tongues. That said as long as we use more descriptiveness we should be able to manage to express ourselves more effectively. I realise that I have also been amiss at giving this my best attention and will strive to do better as I learn from these experiences here.

My will is to be a better man. A smarter person, a better lover an honest critic of all subjects, and a true warrior of peace, and a warrior for fairness, justice and hope. And of course a true warrior of love. Agape love. I have not idly, blindly nor crazily taken the name Peaceful Warrior as a temporary fad, craze or even as a joke. This is who I am, and whom I choose to be. And no doubt I will die one day continually trying to be this way.

'No greater love hath any man but that he lay down his life for others.'

Not my words, but those of a true man of love. Ones that I use to remind myself that life has no reason or meaning if love is not involved. I don't want to die, life is so full of joy. I hope to reach at least 200 years of age before I accept the inevitable doorway to newer things. But my friends, all of you, please listen. I want my courage to guard me as I walk and as I talk and as I sleep and as I share love with each and every one of you. You are my family and I am part of yours. Please let's not fight over trivialities, but accept that we are all capable of error.

If I have erred, I am SORRY.

If you have erred, I forgive you.....

To err is human, to forgive is divine...!

So let us not be silent and give room for doubt. Please share your passions and your pain, and know that we can make headway with that, rather than be thwarted by not knowing.

May the love that heals all wounds please seal the hurt and replace it with a divine appreciation for what we have got, not what we have not.

I have got you and you have got me, we are bothers and sisters forever.

Peaceful Warrior. x

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The youth of today.

The youth of today.

Do you hear people moaning all the time about the youth of today? Saying things like it was different in my day, there is no respect, they only want want want, take take take all the time and the like. Well I suspect that this may have been going on for some time, many centuries even. But has anyone come up with any idea why? Or how it can be altered or resolved to every ones satisfaction? It would appear that throughout history, things have changed greatly in certain areas. Technological advancements and explorations of our world amongst the most obvious, but what about development of our minds, our spiritual being and our ability to look deep within for clues as to our dissatisfactions.

You know by now my point in this blog is to raise further questions through my rants and debates. Not to pull down, but simply to assist in building up new ways of looking at the world that is before our eyes.

So when I say, “do you realise what we see is what we have created,” you shouldn't be so surprised that I am aiming my pointed finger of accusation at each and every one of us......

The simple truth is, we made the mess we live with. And we are also responsible for all the many, many wonderful things we have created too. Humans are capable of incredible works of ingenuity and love and even altruistic kindness. In a world that is murdering thousands of people daily, over the ground upon which we walk (or the supposed rights over it) and for more material things than is reasonable, we can also show some incredible humanitarian altruism. Thank you....

However as we are here to discern what part our youth have to play in this, and what responsibility they have to change things as they see fit, I need to bring us back to the relevant facts or rather the relevant information that we have regarding the way that youths have added to or taken away from the world we have created. I am going to quote directly from the work of a man who has had a dream and revelation of the reasons for this and many other topics. Below the quote I shall reveal him and the works that I would strongly advise everyone to obtain and read. It will change lives, and offer us all a new way to re-evaluate the, TRUTH we have been told for so long it is nearly impossible for us to see it any other way.

The quotation takes the form of a dialogue between this man and someone he understands to be the divine creator of everything. (Please try to have an open mind here, for the purpose of giving the words a fair opportunity to be absorbed into your reason and intellect.)

                 Neale.

With regards to history, anyone can look over their shoulder and say with the benefit of hindsight, “I would have done it differently.”

                       God.

Then why don't you?

I beg your pardon?

I said, then why don't you? Why have you not looked over your shoulder, learned from your past, and done it differently? I'll tell you why. Because to allow your children to look at your past and analyse it critically – indeed, to require them to do so as a part of their education – would run the risk of them disagreeing with how you did things.

They will disagree anyway, of course. You just won't allow too much of it in your classrooms. So they have to take to the streets. Wave signs. Tear up draft cards. Burn bras and flags. Do whatever they can do to get your attention, to get you to see. Your young people have been screaming at you, “there must be a better way!” Yet you do not hear them. You do not want to hear them. And you certainly don't want to encourage them in the classroom to start critically thinking about the facts that you are giving them.

“Just get it,” you say to them. “Don't come in here and tell us we've been doing it wrong. Just get that we've been doing it right...!”

That my friend is how you educate your children. That is what you have been calling education.

But there are those that would say it's the young people and their crazy, wacko, liberal ideas, who have been taking this country and the world down the tubes. Sent it to hell. Pushed it to the edge of oblivion. Destroyed our values-oriented culture, and replaced it with a do-whatever-you-want-to-do, whatever “feels good,” morality which threatens to end our very way of life.

The young people are destroying your way of life. The young people have always done that. Your job is to encourage it, not to discourage it.

It is not your young people who are destroying the rain forests. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who are depleting your ozone layer. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who are exploiting the poor in sweat shops all over the world. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who are taxing you to death, then using the money for war and machines of war. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who are ignoring the problems of the weak and the downtrodden, letting hundreds of people die of starvation on a planet with more than enough to feed everybody. They are asking you to stop it.

It is not your young people who are engaging in the politics of deception and manipulation. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who are sexually repressed, ashamed and embarrassed about their own bodies and passing on this shame and embarrassment to their offspring. They are asking you to stop it. It is not your young people who have set up a value system which says that “might is right,” and a world that solves problems with violence. They are asking you to stop it.

Nay, they are not asking you.....They are begging you....

Yet it is young people who are violent! Young people who join gangs and kill each other! Young people who thumb their nose at law and order- at any kind of order. Young people who are driving us crazy!

When the cries and pleas of young people to change the world are not heard and never heeded; when they see that their cause is lost-that you will have it your way no matter what-young people, who are not stupid, will do the next best thing. If they can't beat you, they will join you.

Your young people have joined you in your behaviour. If they are violent, it is because you are violent. If they are materialistic, it is because you are materialistic. If they are acting crazy, it is because you are acting crazy. If they are using sex manipulatively, irresponsibly, shamefully, it is because they see you doing the same. The only difference between young people and older people is that young people do what they do out in the open.

Older people hide their behaviours. Older people think that younger people cannot see. (Take the Jimmy Saville debacle/coverup for an example) Nothing is hidden from them. They see the hypocrisy of their elders, and they try desperately to change it. Yet having tried and failed, they see no choice but to imitate it. In this they are wrong, yet they have never been taught differently. They have not been allowed to critically analyse what their elders have been doing. They have only been allowed to memorise it.

What you memorise, you memorialize.

How, then, should we educate our young?

(Please read the further dialogue for yourselves)

The author of the above quotations is Neale Donald Walsch. The quote is from pages 118-121 in book two of the series, Conversations with God, (an uncommon dialogue)

I have been very moved by this alternative explanation, a newer way to see certain things in our world in a completely unique way. My admiration for the writing of Neale should be evident, but he is just one of an army of people trying to wake the people here on earth up, to a better way to be and to see the reality of life. I realise that many people will find it hard to take, to stomach such candour, a blasphemous attempt to put words into the mouth of god. But please, I beg you, young and old, let the feelings within you help you to see the choices before you here and now. We can go on as we have, or we can choose again. Open your hearts to the emotions that are telling us all, that this treatment of one another that has gone on for millenia, has to stop. If it doesn't we will betray our higher selves the chance to live as we truly could, in peace and harmony. And we may even destroy both our entire race, and the planet upon which we live. The planet that is here for us to learn our greatest truth. Love is all you need. And sharing it is all we all need to be happy.

So let us please lighten up on our youth. They did not cause the problem, even if they are now caught up in the tragedy of abetting the problem.

Cannot we all, please take a moment to reflect. Couldn't we do more to be part of the solution rather than part of the problem.

Be the change you wish to see in the world.

I know that it is a long road, but it is one worth walking.....

Believe me. I am Peaceful Warrior......


 What I have been doing.

Are You a Christian?

Are You a Christian?

So Fucking what?

For the past few weeks I have been hearing this asked more and more. Are you a Christian?

As if it means a whole load of difference to anyone.

No, but I am a human being and would like to be treated as such I feel like replying. Irrelevant of the title I am still a good person who loves and does his best for everyone. I don't profess to be perfect but try to be a better man by living in accord with values from a higher source than those of mankind's supposed civilization. (As if he knows what that means anyway)

Many people are going around saying that they are Christian and what good has it done any one of us. I mean so they/you are so called Christians, fine, but does that make the rest of us worthless? They/you say, rather piously that they/you are saved in Christ and that everyone else is a sinner still to be redeemed. Seriously do they/you think that they/you are super human beings or something. I tell you something, I have read a lot of scripture in my time and so I know what I am talking about here. It doesn't matter what a person says they believe, it is all about what they/you do with that belief, and how they/you exercise that belief in their/your lives. It is no good saying that you are a Christian if you don't have the first idea what it means that you have to do to be one. Nor that the very idea behind the title is a task that they/you can't be bothered to actually implement in daily life let alone dealings with other human beings.

Listen up Christians, to your boss.

He never went about saying, “look at me how great am I with my nice title and freedom to harass everyone else,” did he?

No. he spoke the truth and never used such hostile tactics against anyone. He simply was polite and courteous and treated everyone as an equal, despite their apparent differences of faith and worship styles. Only when he saw people professing to be gods people, but using their positions to deceive and defraud others did he react at all with any indignation. He threw the sellers out of the temple because they were cheating people and praying on the poor and the helpless.

His followers once told him to stop the harlot from showering him with expensive gifts, and all he said was, let the woman do a kindness if she feels it is what she can do for me. He ate with her and others like her, often in preference to those that thought their own righteousness was greater. He did not judge anyone unfairly, he gave each person the chance to be considered as an equal on his merits as a human being first, and his chosen actions/form of worship second.

So, no I am not one of you, because I do not want anyone to think me a pious prick who is up his own arse with pride. I make the most of the chance to meet others, whatever their faith and share the truth of love with them, and if they judge me because I am not a confirmed member of the club, then so be it, I figure it is their loss for being so narrow minded and shallow.

Remember the story of the good Samaritan?

Yeah I bet you do.... No Jew or Gentile to be seen for dust, it was the good old Samaritan man who went out of his way to not only help, but see to it that the man was clothed, fed, nursed and had money to get home again.

You may not appreciate the tone I have taken to say this to you all, but I assure you that I have thought long and hard about it. In my defence, I will say that if there were no truth then you can in no way be feeling indignant at all, because what I am saying is not directed at you. If you are feeling a little indignant, then please look closely at yourself and see if the truth doesn't hurt because it may be true of your attitude towards others.

Look at what Jesus supposedly did for us all. He gave his life, to give you and I the chance to be redeemed. He didn't quibble and say well only the not so bad ones, or the less than really good ones can be included, he said it was for us all. When he gave he gave the whole nine yards.

He taught us to follow two simple commands, whatever the previous 10 had said or the thousands brought in by the Jews to complicate and unnerve everyone who wanted finite details because they were too selfish to actually try the simple method.

He said Two.

1. Love god with all your soul mind and vital force.
2. Love your neighbour as yourself.

I think we can safely say no.1 nails it for that topic.

No.2, well this is what it doesn't say to me.

It doesn't say, love my neighbour only enough to convince him he is cared about.

Nor does it say, as much as he thinks I do for him when in secret I take it all back.

Or does it suggest that the neighbour should get less because he is not connected to me in any real personal way.

And finally it does not mean that you should love your neighbour only in public, and behind the scenes do nothing to care for or nurture the relationship.

What it certainly does mean is this.

Whatever you would do to yourself with regards to caring, loving, being responsible, giving affection, putting yourself first, listening to your needs and wants and addressing those, THEN DO THEM ALSO FOR YOUR NEIGHBOUR.

And are you sure who your neighbour is?

Well if as a Christian you should love him as yourself, then why the hell don't you know him well enough to know his name or his needs concerns and desires, because you damned well know your own needs. You talk about them all the time, so why don't you know his needs too???

Because you are not at all interested in your neighbour, and by virtue of that, not at all really a true follower of a man who's sandals you clearly are not fit to untie. A man you say that you worship adore and trust. Someone who you say you try to emulate in every way to be a true Christian. Well I say this, if the shoe fits.....

Don't pretend to be a Christian, be a Christian if you must..!!!!

Do what Jesus would do in all situations, and if you get it wrong, never mind, keep trying. But don't use the title as a shield behind which to deny the true nature of the actions that you have pledged to adhere to in all areas of your lives. Don't be the hypocrite that you are when you ignore the force of Jesus's words to love your neighbour (effectively everyone on the planet) as you would do to yourself. In fact be better to others than to yourself then it will always be in your favour when the day of judgement comes, won't it?

Being Christian means being more observant of the needs of others and doing whatever...yes whatever you can to help them. Try taking the time to do something kind to a complete stranger and feel good about the love you have to share, rather than selfishly only doing things for yourself and those directly related to you already. Step outside the box and be what Jesus was, a lover of everyone and doer of fine works to his neighbours.

And please don't keep asking others if they are a Christian as if that means you can then treat them as second class citizens, for that is not an act of Christianity at all, but an act of the wicked one.!!!!

No small animals or children were harmed during the course of this rant and all words have been vetted by health and safety, according to all the rules of sharpes and dangerous and hazardous chemicals.....

May the love of the Lord forgive us all, especially me if I have offended anyone. But for the love of Christ please take a good look at yourselves.....

Loads of love and hugs,

Peaceful Warrior.

Death of a dear friend

Sorry I have been away from here for a while. This post might explain a little.



Death of a dear friend

R.I.P. Richard Leslie Perry.

Last Saturday (9th June 2012) at around 5pm, a very dear and long term friend of mine, Richard Leslie Perry, sadly passed away. He was only 48 years old.

He will be missed in the world, he was a kind and generous man, and father, husband, brother, son and friend. His passing was due in part to a cancer, that took him very suddenly. His illness mercifully short. From being discovered with a tumor to the end was little under three months. He has left behind four great children, a newly wedded bride and many grandchildren.

I have known Richard for over 25 years and in that time we had shared many experiences and specially memorable times. I have watched his children grow into fine adults and worked with him and his wife in helping to raise and care for them over these years, whenever I was about. There were times when we may not see one another for many months, even years passed as we got on with living lives full and happy. But when we would get back together, it was as if hardly any time had elapsed at all.

I came to see Richard on an intuitive feeling that I had to see him. I was surprised to find he had been admitted to hospital a few days earlier, but happy to be able to visit and catch up. He was incredibly frail and was having trouble keeping any food down, the therapy serving to deny him an appetite. 

We spent about an hour and a half chatting, and I certainly felt that my friend, known for his strength, stamina and will power was on the road to recovery. Though in a very weak condition he joked and made a concerted effort to make me feel at ease. He never indicated to me nor any of his family the extent of his illness, and bravely soldiered on to the end, even though he had been given an expectancy threshold by the doctors. The cancer cut that time incredibly short.

His last words to me were humorous. I bent down to kiss him, and told him that I loved him, though I could not bring myself to believe that I would not again share a warm smile and his happy  company.

" It's ok to kiss he said."

" Yeah but I'm not kissing you on the lips, I don't want you getting frisky." I replied

" I just wanted your chewing gum." was his witty retort.

We held hands and said "see you later," maybe neither of us accepting this would not happen.

This was the man and friend I knew for all these years, smiling back at me, free from fear of what others would say. Richard was as close as any brother and I have several great brothers too.

On Tuesday morning, Graham (his youngest son) having great strength called to tell me that his father, my friend had passed on. I was devastated. 

I have written this poem as a memory to a great friend, one who I would gladly have swapped places with, if that were possible.

NUMB

His voice I failed to recognise,

I try desperately to conceive,

The many other reasons he'd call.

“You came to see Dad,

He's at peace now, glad to see,

One last time your happy face.”

I cannot breath,

Hands of ice gripping my heart.

Tears well swiftly to sting,

To accuse me again my lack.

He's gone as a candle snubbed,

Lost to our loving embraces.

Heart stopped, clock ticking, silence.

Then the tears of aching,

Stinging fury, flooding my face,

My friend has flown to grace.

Ages pass and I cry,

The echo along the line,

I pray his children time,

Wish my love could heal this crime.

Robbed of one who always cared,

Never lacked in what he shared.

Deafening the noiseless pain,

I'll never see him again,

Smile, receive his light,

Share a tender word unheard.

Oh friend I'll miss you now,

But we have to cope somehow.

To reveal the pact we shared,

I pray you'd knew I cared.

The love was in your eyes,

Laughter your final words.

You will never ever be forgotten,

Though I'll miss you something rotten.....

For Richard

With angels now.

As you you will probably know, I was planning to set off on my walk around the United Kingdom on Saturday 16th June. As there will be a funeral in West Sussex on Monday 18th June , I will respectfully be postponing the walk until the middle of this week. Wednesday 20th or Thursday 21st.

I will also be dedicating my walk to the memory of Richard Leslie Perry.

And I will also be  adding a cancer charity to the list of beneficiaries on my just giving page,with the consultation with his family.

Please bear with me on the updates, as I am dealing with this very poorly.